I am in a fairly foul mood today, and I feel more foul about the mood than I do the day. I have to remember not to start off my morning by reading an hour of Someday This Pain Will Be Useful to You, cause the main character and narrator is a DICK, and he's a dick to everyone around him and I think if I met him in real life I'd punch him in the face and yell at him to stop being a dick.
He just judges people for thinking differently from these self-righteous opinions he forms of the world. You can't control what people think and to judge them and resent them for it is possibly the most dicky thing you can do.
Not to mention he's a depressed mofo with too many issues to count. He thinks the whole fucking world is a matrix and everything and everyone is out to brainwash him. It gets me so mad, and I can't start out my day like that.
I had a very strange moment last night. I sat out on the front steps after I unlocked the door for Sarah to come home, and the night was so oddly beautiful it kind of made me really happy. I also knew if my sister found me sitting out on the steps when she came home, she'd call me a weirdo, but I made the conscious decision not to care.
I dunno... it was just... very strange and wonderful and for a second I think I knew what it was to love a land. The weather was just amazing and I felt very distinctly suspended in time and it was an odd sensation, but I liked it.
ANYWAY. That's all.
Currently~
Mood: grumpy cos i'm grumpy
Music: Before the Parade Passes By--Barbra Streisand
Video: n/a
Lit: read the first paragraph.
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