birds flyin' high, you know how i feel

Nothing exciting happens on Mondays...

I went back to babysitting the girls, and we watched movies all day since it's (STILL) raining. It's been raining almost non-stop for... four weeks, this Friday. In june. That's just so, so wrong.

I went to see the proposal last night with Carolyn, and it was really sweet, She's dating this really cute brazillian in our class now, and his name is Josh. X3

I can't wait for Ema and Abbs to get back from their Mission Trip in Louisiana. I wanna have sleepovers and stuff ;A;

Also, I have a checking account! Sweet, right?

Currently~
Mood: drowsy
Music: Good Morning--Singing in the Rain
Video: stuff on my iPod, thanks to this lovely place~
Lit: Grapes of Wrath

we're tumbling down, we're spiralling

I don't know what to think about Michael Jackson's death.

I mean, he was Elvis. He was a musical genius, he was out-of-this-world famous, and he suffered a tragic demise. Elvis.

I think I feel more bad for all of his fans, who miss him so much, than I do for him. I know alot of people are really torn up over it. I guess I'm just sad for him. His life wasn't lived on a rainbow farm, exactly. But he was extremely brilliant, I won't dispute that.

The world will miss him.

In other news, Liv and Gracie are soooooooooo adorable, and we watched Princess Diaries and went to Crazy Jayne's for ice cream and got caught in the rain. I love them so much <33

Currently~
Mood: sentimental
Music: Falling Slowly--Glen Hansard
Video: Thriller, haha
Lit: APH doujinshi

i wanna feel a car crash, to let go

I don't even want to THINK about the report card I got in the mail today. (F on the chem exam, C+ on the History, A's in pretty much everything else).

Today was my first day babysitting Gracie and Olivia. It wasn't bad at all--we watched Hairspray and played Pass the Pigs. I look forward to tomorrow. They're so freakin' adorable X33

Currently~
Mood: relaxed
Music: Car Crash--Matt Nathanson
Video: Eddie Izzard stand up <3
Lit: Grapes of Wrath

i've gotta get some life back into my life

I am in a fairly foul mood today, and I feel more foul about the mood than I do the day. I have to remember not to start off my morning by reading an hour of Someday This Pain Will Be Useful to You, cause the main character and narrator is a DICK, and he's a dick to everyone around him and I think if I met him in real life I'd punch him in the face and yell at him to stop being a dick.

He just judges people for thinking differently from these self-righteous opinions he forms of the world. You can't control what people think and to judge them and resent them for it is possibly the most dicky thing you can do.

Not to mention he's a depressed mofo with too many issues to count. He thinks the whole fucking world is a matrix and everything and everyone is out to brainwash him. It gets me so mad, and I can't start out my day like that.

I had a very strange moment last night. I sat out on the front steps after I unlocked the door for Sarah to come home, and the night was so oddly beautiful it kind of made me really happy. I also knew if my sister found me sitting out on the steps when she came home, she'd call me a weirdo, but I made the conscious decision not to care.

I dunno... it was just... very strange and wonderful and for a second I think I knew what it was to love a land. The weather was just amazing and I felt very distinctly suspended in time and it was an odd sensation, but I liked it.

ANYWAY. That's all.

Currently~
Mood: grumpy cos i'm grumpy
Music: Before the Parade Passes By--Barbra Streisand
Video: n/a
Lit: read the first paragraph.

I HAD A BAAAAYBEEE; IT WUZ MA SUUUUN

So... yesterday? I went to the mall with Ema and got some yummies and go-blonde shampoo. And I went out to CPK with the fam.

I feel very productive today. I got my bookshelves rearranged to make room for the 7 volumes of Death Note that Abby gave me... and I transported my scanner to my room so i'll stop procrastinating and get all my RC sketches from the last six months together.

Mom and Gompy and Trip and Peter are going to the sox game later. I'm kinda jealous... I hope it stays beautiful outside. The 7-day-stretch of rain finally ended!! Gompy and Peter are going to stay the night tonight, and I can't wait to see Gompy.

I'm listening to Dave and Joel's review of the 24 season 7 finale from a couple weeks ago. It's beautiful. They love tearing that show to shreds.

Currently~
Mood: productive
Music: Don't Bring Me Down--Sia
Video: Hetalia MADs
Lit: Becoming Jane Austen--Jon Spence

how long do you wanna be loved? is forever enough?

Today was a little rough-and-tumble.

This morning was Sarah's eighth-grade graduation, which was already sad enough for her. But to top it off, her good friend Emma's mother died last night after battling cancer for a long time. When we arrived at the breakfast this morning, I felt like the only person in the whole caf who wasn't sobbing. All of her freinds were really broken up, and my sister was carrying a box of tissues with her through the entire ceremony. I thought poor sweet Jessica wasn't going to make it. I love that girl I think more than my sister does. She's such a sweetheart, and seeing her cry like that almost brought me to tears. I felt so bad for everyone, especially Emma.

But then it was Lorraine's surprise birthday party! Typical me, I showed up a few minutes early and she hadn't even left yet! I had to duck while mom pulled out to drive away as she walked to her car right in front of us!! But thankfully she didn't recognize any of us, cos of the new car. And soon everyone arrived and we all hid and Barrett (her boyfriend) jumped out when she came in and then we all jumped out and she was really surprised.

It was raining so we couldn't go to the beach like we planned, but we went to the Johnson playground instead and played around in the rain, and played volleyball in the field. Everyone was very wet when we came back, but we were all happy (except Ema, that priss. XDD) and we had cake.

I think it was a good day, though. And I have lots of new books from Abby C to read!! (The lemons didn't work, by the way. They just kind gave my hair the typical sunned look it always has at the end of summer. But we had fun sitting in her backyard for two and a half hours!)

Currently~
Mood: youthful vigor!
Music: Lullaby--Dixie Chicks
Video: Party in Sweden's Pants!
Lit: Death Note--Tsugumi Ohba

guess we'll have to wait until the summer time~~!

I. AM. FUCKING. DONE.

My English and Chem finals (fairly easy) are OVER. I spent probably an hour jumping around the kitchen screaming my head off. My throat is a bit sore now, hahahaha.

SUMMER BEGINS TODAY. HAIR DYEING AND BEACH PARTIES IN THE NEAR FUTURE. STAY TUNED FOR GOOD TIMES.

Currently~
Mood: BYDKHGDAYGSGANSDHBSFUGNHSAB
Music: Lovers Are Losing--Keane
Video: n/a
Lit: Someday This Pain Will Be Useful to You

60 years of sorrow, you got 5 or 6 of bliss

Dance is over.

I feel like this year has really been my best performance year ever. I made barely any mistakes at all, was hardly ever overly nervous to the point where it was making me mess up, and I just really felt in the zone this year. All of my dances went really, really well and I feel like I looked really good and everyone could see me.

Now that it's over though, and I feel finals coming, I actually have lost steam in waiting for summer. I hate it, but I feel almost like I'll be bored these coming months. BUT I CAN'T THINK THAT!! This summer will be kickass!!

I'm going over to Abby's Wednesday and we're going to dye our hair with lemons, and then thursday we're having a surprise party for Lorraine! (I hope she doesn't read this... she probably wouldn't.) So After finals are over it's time to PARTY!!

Currently~
Mood: anticipation
Music: Smile--Lily Allen
Video: n/a
Lit: The Grapes of Wrath--John Steinbeck

it feels like the only way is the wrong way

I'M DONE WITH CLASSES.

My first final (history--not terrible) and all my classes were today. I don't have to sit through CHEMISTRY or HISTORY ANYMORE.

The first dance performance is tonight and I feel so relaxed about everythingit feels so good. The stress I was feeling yesterday (when I got hysterical and had a nervous breakdown in chem) feels pretty far away right at this moment. It's so nice to be able to focus on something physical, that's within my control, instead of something mental which is never guaranteed.

I look forward to doing rush complex stuff with Emily tonight (if she'll pay attention to me instead of her new PSP, lol) and reading my (free, SCORE) copies of Grapes of Wrath and The Portable Steinbeck. Maybe I could bring my laptop.....

Currently~
Mood: feather-light
Music: It Only Takes A Moment--Hello, Dolly!
Video: w/e
Lit: The Grapes of Wrath--John Steinbeck

i'm tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here

I can't believe it's monday again.

I have a health exam tomorrow @_@

BUTBUT. My chem project went off without a hitch!! And now I have a whole class to attack the Review Packet of Death, which is full of problems I don't understand!! 8D

FML.

Currently~
Mood: go away, please
Music: Death by Chocolate--Sia
Video: n/a
Lit: n/a

oh, you set my soul alive

I just finished my health vocab. I think it took a total of around.... 10 hours? 11? Something like that.

I am SO HAPPY it's over, but I almost feel like there's more to do, like it's unfinished somehow. Whatever. I am so past caring.

I finally drew some Rush Complex after I got home from Abby & Ema & Mack's Confirmation Party last night, and it was so gratifying. It feels like its been months. I can't wait until two weeks from now, when I can do it all the time.

....ON TO THE SPANISH PROJECT. HI-HO SILVER.

Currently~
Mood: triumphant
Music: Supermassive Black Hole--Muse
Video: MADs
Lit: fanfics...

open up your mind, see like me

Thank heaven above, it's friday. I never thought it would get here.

So, i'll lay my pathetic life out for you:

tomorrow: working on final health project, spanish project, chem lab from hell, and preparing for health final exam
sunday: more of the same
monday: spanish project due
tuesday: health final exam, health project due
wednesday: final deadline for finishing up the chem lab from hell
thursday: chem lab due, final full day of classes, dance concert dress rehearsal
friday: history final exam, last day of classes (art book cover due), dance performance #1
saturday: dance performance #2, studying for exams
sunday: collapsing in a heap, more studying
monday: algebra and spanish exams, studying like mad for chem
tuesday: english and chem (a.k.a, death) exams
wednesday: MY FUCKING LIFE BEGINS.

More for my own reference than for yours. Items may be added over the next couple days.

X.X

Currently~
Mood: overload
Music: Stoppin' the Love--KT Tunstall
Video: w/e
Lit: whatever i want~

i don't care if i lose my mind; i'm already cursed

I think i'm almost officially fed up.

I've had--at the VERY least--three hours of homework every night so far this week. And it's not over yet, even though my major assignment is done for health.

I took a chem test this morning that was probably going the smoothest that a chem test has gone this year so far. I was doing very well, and knew just what I was doing... and then the period ended. and he wouldn't let me fucking finish. I had two studies and he wouldn't let anyone finish it!! fuck meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I just... can't get over the work. But I have been working extremely dilligently, which is a first for me... I am really tempted to wander away from my work and do something I want to do, but my will power has impressed even me. It's just the last push, I keep telling myself. Or as Mack said, "One more push..... Ms. Johnson." XD

10 MORE DAYS. WILL SHE MAKE IT?! STAY TUNED TO FIND OUT, MOFOS.

Currently~
Mood: exhaustimagated
Music: Fairytale--Alexander Rybak
Video: n/a
Lit: Robert E. Lee packet. Would be interesting if I didn't have to cram it into two days, coughMS.CROHANcough.