I felt so utterly "feh" today. I didn't leave my room the entire day except for food, and I knew I had stuff I wanted to do, like scan in some Rush Complex stuff for the blog [PIMPPIMPPIMP] or clean my room or study my driver's manual (though I dont know if I could've faced that one yet) and other stuff... instead I read my new novel, Dead Until Dark by Charlaine Harris, which is very good, and ate Swedish Fish and cruised facebook. I was the most useless piece of blob today and I kind of hate myself for it.
I really need to continue my Sharks! sequel, since I hit like seven watchers for it today with Ema-chan and another person, but I honestly have NO drive.
But hell, school starts back up tomorrow, and just the thought of that gives me chills. And finals are on the 20th, and that will be a hell previously unimagined, with all honors classes...
I feel the strength to deal with it all, it's inside me, but it's definitely dormant right now. I'm going to the gym tomorrow, and I think the excercise will be the stress relief I've needed...
Still, the fact that the holidays are over is incredibly depressing. And drive-killing.
I can see a tunnel at the end of all this light. But there's a small light at the end of that tunnel, too, I guess...
I also could tell that if i'd picked up a pencil today I would've gotten alot done... I had some nice images in my head that I would've liked to have gotten down, but as it usually is with these things, I got in my own way.
Again, a little self-loathing in there.
Maybe routine will be good for me. As much as monotony is my worst enemy, it often helps me focus my mind on other things.
...I'm out of blog power. I feel tomorrow coming towards me with all his power. Gotta go brace for impact.
Talk to you when i've got some life back.
Currently~
Mood: Listless
Music: Bonnie Taylor Shakedown (2K4) -- Hellogoodbye EP
Video: facebook vids
Lit: Charlaine Harris -- Dead Until Dark
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